before it's too late

it's definitely time for me to move on. i keep saying i've spent too much time around immature, spiteful, backstabbing, habitual whiners at my job. apparently some of the evil has soaked into me.

yesterday, a coworker around my age, who is also getting married and tries very hard to be adult and serious but astounds us all sometimes with her sweet but shallow daftness, made an unprompted announcement that now she is going to start "seriously dieting." to which i laughed and asked what all the meals of crystal light, pre-weighed-out special K, and skim milk for the last 6 months had been. she responded that she was going to try even harder (bulimia? it's the only form of negative intake i can think of) and exercise by going to the gym before and after work each day. let me also say that she is pretty and rather compact, so this all seemed quite strange.

this morning she walked towards me at group meeting to say hi, and i shit you not, i came within half a second of motioning towards the two mini donuts on her plate, smirking, and saying "so how's that diet working out for you?" i even opened my mouth to say that before i realized it was a total asshole thing to say, and if i heard someone else say it, i would have immediately called them a douchebag to their face, and that if i said it, i might as well rot in hell.


i also used to save up every rumor and pile of dirt on anyone that i ever heard, and use it like the currancy of diplomacy it was meant to be when my ass is on the line. with the amount of crap i've passed around in the last few months, the coffers are empty and i'm going morally bankrupt.

corporate culture, what have you done to me??